It’s true what they say about the glow of a mama expecting.

And, that glow may actually seem a bit brighter when the mama has been waiting a long time to hold the title “mama” and hold a child of her own in her arms.

Showered she was. Complete with games (it is her first, ya’ll. Don’t even think of skipping the games) courtesy of the Overthinker (that be me)–a fun Chinese trivia game, a matching game for Chinese characters with their corresponding English words, and a “sweet messages for the mom” game where ladies wrote little messages of advice or thoughts (we even had some lengthy letters) using the names of all these candy bars.

Hope her friends didn’t think I was the game nazi. There was pretty much no escaping my games.

Lots of ladies there to celebrate with the expectant mama, mama-to-be, mama waiting to hold her son in her arms. Lots of loot, and lots of love. And some special love from a few other mamas who have gone before her to bring their little ones home to China.

The journey of waiting you have been on for so long is almost over, Melissa. Soon, the real adventure begins.

Some of my favorite mom moments happen without me even being a part of the moment. You know, listening to the kids playing together nicely in another room (which always seems to happen when I need to be ushering them to bed), overhearing one of their conversations, watching as my husband makes them all laugh.

Yesterday was one of those moments for me.

Soaking in the last days of freedom this week, we spent the afternoon at a local park. Evan found some sort of seed that he got all excited about planting in the dirt where we were sitting under a big ole tree. All three of the big kids got right on into it with him, using sticks and little rocks to carve out a very shallow little hole in the dry dirt where they were convinced this little seed would thrive. They buried it under dusty dirt and used shovels to bring water up to get it off to a good start.

I am the mother of 3 adopted girls. I find the men I date are okay when I tell them I have 3 daughters, but when they find out they are adopted, and from 3 different countries and not my own biological children, they don’t want to date anymore. Whether I tell them upfront or after a couple of dates, all the men are reacting the same way. They say that they would be okay with it if the girls were biological children and came with child support. Why are these men reacting this way?

Dear Susan,
Please know how sorry I am that you have found yourself here, hurting and discouraged and needing to ask this question. I can only imagine how hard it must be to be considering moving along in a relationship and then to be hurt by words and the sentiment behind them that these men have expressed to you.

You asked the question: “Why are these men reacting this way?” So, I’ll do my best to give an answer to that. These men do not share your same heart, the heart that followed God’s call to make these girls your girls. And, frankly, from what you share here, it doesn’t seem like they are men after God’s heart at all.

In the past, when friends have shared about difficult relationships and asked similar questions (“Why would she do that?” “I don’t understand why he acts this way.”), I typically answer with this–Why wouldn’t she? Why would you expect something different? It is only by God’s grace and His supernatural heart surgery that we’re able to be different. If someone has not experienced heart change through faith by grace, how can we expect him or her to act like he or she has? With hearts unchanged by God, how could you expect these men to act as loving, godly men ready to embrace you and your family as one?

That may answer the question you posed, but perhaps there is an underlying question a bit harder to ask. The words aren’t there, but maybe the feelings are. So, without asking the question myself for you, I want to simply answer it just in case it is there.

You are the mother God called to mother these precious girls. And, He stands with you as you live out that calling every single day. Embrace joy knowing that you have been chosen for this grand purpose of motherhood. As you experience hurt and rejection, do not question that call and doubt His love for you and your family. Trust that He is ever present, ever loving, ever active in your lives. Continue to seek God’s best for your family and trust that if He has a husband set apart for you–which He may or may not–that husband will be one who will share your heart and not place qualifications (like child support) on his love for each member of your family. Thank Him for protecting you from men who are not His best for you and for your daughters. And, take action to surround yourself as a single mother with a community who will remind you of Truth when you are discouraged or finding yourself longing for something you don’t have today. Let people who do share the heart of God pour into you and your girls as you walk the path set before you.