As I’ve been scurrying around preparing for this coming trip to the orphanage, this song has been playing over and over again in my head.
I could hold on, I could hold onto who I am and never let You change me from the inside.
And, I could be safe, I could be safe here in Your arms and never leave home, never let these walls down.But, You have called me higher; You have called me deeper. And, I’ll go where You will lead me, Lord.
You have called me higher; You have called me deeper. And, I’ll go where You will lead me, Lord.
Where You lead me, Lord.
I guess God’s placed it in my head for a reason—I need to be reminded. Planning an ayi training for the first time, preparing for an English class for the first time, leading a team of 14 other people, and leaving my family for 2 weeks—when I really consider all that’s happening, I can so easily find myself thinking I’m in over my head. And, when I think that, I could find myself falling into doubt. Can I do this? Who am I? This is crazy. Am I crazy?
But, then I hear the song again.
I could be safe and never leave home. We all could. I could put my energy instead into protecting myself and the crew in my home and stay right where I am. But, I don’t want to. I want to go where He is leading and help others do the same. I want to be changed from the inside and have a front-row seat to that change in the people before me. He’s called me to this; He’s called me deeper. And, right now, the only place I want to be is in over my head in the depth of that calling, allowing Him to use me despite myself and my often foolish agendas.
You may not be leaving home this week as we are; that’s okay. He hasn’t called you to go this time. But, you can be a part of the work from right where you are in a sacrificial way via prayer. And, we need you to be, firmly believing that there is great power in having prayer warriors supporting us.
I’d like you to consider signing up to cover us in prayer over the course of a morning or over one of your evenings. Just email me to find out how to do that. Before we leave in the wee hours of the morning on Wednesday, I will email out some prayer requests and prompts to those who have signed up to pray. And, I will thank God for you, the huge team of people who are standing with our small team of 15, encouraging us, holding our arms up, interceding for us so that we can magnify Him and be a blessing to those He places before us from the newborn babies to the elderly foster mothers and everyone in between. I’m in over my head with good company.